I am so tired of being fat... You would think I would have more motivation. Mentally I am strong...but then out of no where, I buckle. It could be the smallest temptation or feeling that sends me in tailspin. Maybe it's because I've lost 50lbs and feel good.... I need to remember that I am still fat. Just because I've lost 50lbs does not make it okay or justify eating bad. I am halfway there and still have another 50lbs to lose.
Yesterday, I did OKAY. Not great, but okay. I ate one too many protein bars... (which is okay). But my downfall was the ever so tempting Barefoot Contessa's Pasta Pesto Pea Salad I made for my hubby. Ugh. I ate about a cup of it. Not too bad.... but not good either.
My husband is not on a crazy protein diet, so I do still cook for him. Most of the time I'm not tempted...but this I couldn't resist just a small cup... Ugh.
I know I didn't do too bad, but it just disppoints me when I fall off track. I WANT THIS. I want to be thin. I want to be healthy. I want to get pregnant sometime next year. I NEED THIS.
My husband gets up EVERY morning at 5am to workout. (He is training for a Half Ironman Triathlon this fall). I have decided that I am going to start getting up with him and doing my elliptical machine, which has been collecting dust. Please pray I actually get up and do this!!! I hate working out, but know I need to start being more active. Diet is great, but working out is key.
Until next time....