Tuesday, August 10, 2010

Will Power...and my struggle to find it.

I am so tired of being fat... You would think I would have more motivation.  Mentally I am strong...but then out of no where, I buckle.  It could be the smallest temptation or feeling that sends me in tailspin.  Maybe it's because I've lost 50lbs and feel good.... I need to remember that I am still fat.  Just because I've lost 50lbs does not make it okay or justify eating bad.  I am halfway there and still have another 50lbs to lose. 

Yesterday, I did OKAY.  Not great, but okay.  I ate one too many protein bars... (which is okay).  But my downfall was the ever so tempting Barefoot Contessa's Pasta Pesto Pea Salad I made for my hubby.  Ugh.  I ate about a cup of it. Not too bad.... but not good either.

My husband is not on a crazy protein diet, so I do still cook for him.  Most of the time I'm not tempted...but this I couldn't resist just a small cup... Ugh. 

I know I didn't do too bad, but it just disppoints me when I fall off track.  I WANT THIS.  I want to be thin.  I want to be healthy.  I want to get pregnant sometime next year.  I NEED THIS.

My husband gets up EVERY morning at 5am to workout.  (He is training for a Half Ironman Triathlon this fall).  I have decided that I am going to start getting up with him and doing my elliptical machine, which has been collecting dust.  Please pray I actually get up and do this!!!  I hate working out, but know I need to start being more active.  Diet is great, but working out is key.

Until next time....


  1. Hey there, I know how you feel. That's why I named my blog, the ups and downs of The Unknown Dieter. Our moods are going to be up and down as we battle through this process, but we do have choices. The choices you made were not bad. So you had a bit extra. Forgive and move on. You can do it. I'm so inspired by your 50 lb weight loss and I cannot wait to say that myself.

    As far as exercise goes, this is what I have heard (and I'm not an expert by any stretch of the imagination - obviously - lol) - When you are losing weight Diet is the most important, but when you have lost your weight exercise then becomes extremely important to help you keep off the weight - go figure.

    Sending my best thoughts to you - you are soon-to-be skinny ...I just know it!

  2. Great Blog Post! I hope that you are able to push yourself to get up in the morning with your husband. The hard work is worth it! Praying for you