Dog Days of Summer...and SWEAT.

I wonder if I will ever be that girl that "glistens".  I doubt it. 

I live in the Deep South.  It's hot, humid and almost unbearable.  This past weekend I went to the Farmer's Market in Charleston with a friend.  I think I made it 3 minutes before I got annoyed...  I literally had sweat running down my back all the way to my ankles.  Disgusting.  I am a BIG fan of air conditioning and stay inside a good bit because of my current job.

I keep telling myself that maybe if I lose some more weight, I won't sweat as much as I do...but I am realizing that is not true.  I don't care if I get down to my goal weight...I'm sure I will still sweat just as much!  (I have this crazy mentality that fat girls sweat more than skinny girls...guess it's because I've never been skinny and am wishful thinking!)

Needless to say.... I am MORE than ready for Fall weather!!!  Bring it!

Until next time....

Weekly Weigh In

Weekly Weigh In....

195lbs!!!!!!

YAY!  I am so glad to be past this "Not Losing Hump".  I've been teeter tottering back and forth and I am finally breaking through!  I am motivated more now than ever and will get into the 180's soon....

Until next time...

My "Real" Motivation...

One of the main reasons I am trying to get my weight down is pregnancy.  Sure, I want to be healthy... I want to look good for my husband...I want to feel comfortable about my body...I want self confidence... But, my driving force is a potential pregnancy.

My husband and I are going to start trying for kids after Christmas... We've been married for a year and a half.  I know some would still consider us "newlyweds" and advise us to enjoy time to ourselves, but we are ready.  We both talk about being parents constantly... Being a mom is all I think about.  Plus, we want 2-3 children and I'm going to be 29 this year (he will be 32) and we don't want to be having kids too late in life.

First of all, I want a healthy pregnancy and know that weight can cause issues.  Second of all, I want to look pregnant...not just fat.  I've always been afraid that when I get pregnant people won't be able to tell if I'm really pregnant or just overweight.

My goal weight is 147lbs... I have roughly 50ish pounds to go.  I know that I can get this off before Christmas, but it's just starting to hit me how close Christmas really is! 

This is my motivation.  I think this weekend made me realize that I need to step up my game and get this weight OFF. I mean, it's already the middle of August...What happened to July!?  Before I know it, it's going to be Thanksgiving....and then Christmas.

I've been lolly-gaggin' for the last month.  I haven't lost what I've wanted... I think it's mostly because I've gotten comfortable.  I feel good about the 50lbs I've already lost.... and have slacked off.  I'm in a "halfway hump"...I just need to keep reminding myself of my goal and that even though I "feel good"...I'm still overweight!

I am ready to get back with it.  This "halfway hump" has got to go!!!

Until next time...

Weekly Weigh In

Weekly Weigh In

200 lbs

Well, I wish I could say I'm happy about this...but I'm not.  I could've done MUCH better.  This weekend was good...I ate well and was not tempted.  I also realized that I need to get my ass in gear.  Seriously.  I need to be at my goal weight by Christmas... That's not that far away!!!  4 1/2 months.


Until next time...

Will Power...and my struggle to find it.

I am so tired of being fat... You would think I would have more motivation.  Mentally I am strong...but then out of no where, I buckle.  It could be the smallest temptation or feeling that sends me in tailspin.  Maybe it's because I've lost 50lbs and feel good.... I need to remember that I am still fat.  Just because I've lost 50lbs does not make it okay or justify eating bad.  I am halfway there and still have another 50lbs to lose. 

Yesterday, I did OKAY.  Not great, but okay.  I ate one too many protein bars... (which is okay).  But my downfall was the ever so tempting Barefoot Contessa's Pasta Pesto Pea Salad I made for my hubby.  Ugh.  I ate about a cup of it. Not too bad.... but not good either.

My husband is not on a crazy protein diet, so I do still cook for him.  Most of the time I'm not tempted...but this I couldn't resist just a small cup... Ugh. 

I know I didn't do too bad, but it just disppoints me when I fall off track.  I WANT THIS.  I want to be thin.  I want to be healthy.  I want to get pregnant sometime next year.  I NEED THIS.

My husband gets up EVERY morning at 5am to workout.  (He is training for a Half Ironman Triathlon this fall).  I have decided that I am going to start getting up with him and doing my elliptical machine, which has been collecting dust.  Please pray I actually get up and do this!!!  I hate working out, but know I need to start being more active.  Diet is great, but working out is key.

Until next time....

Weekly Weigh In

Weekly Weigh In

201 lbs

UGH!!!!!!!!

I am so frustrated with myself.  I did really bad last week.... (Mellow Mushroom, Taco Bell, Date Night, Breakfast Buffet, and Mexican).  I have only myself to blame.  I am back with it... I got back on the protein shakes yesterday, so I hope to see a big loss this week!

I'm also drinking 1.5 gallons of water a day.  This is SUPER hard...but I have to stay hydrated with my kidney stone history & protein shake diet.

Expect a big number next week!

Excuses, excuses...

I'm just going to say it.  I have taken my Kidney Stones to a whole new level of excuses... 

I have been very lethargic all week...I think it's from the IV at the hospital.  I called my diet Dr.... and she did confirm that protein shakes can "stir up" kidney stones, but do not cause them.  Unfortunately, I can't change my parents...so I'm pretty much destined to get them.

With that being said, I took this week off my diet...and went a little crazy.  Monday-Mellow Mushroom, Tuesday- Taco Bell, and today- Wendys.  UGH.  What was I thinking!?

I did go to my diet Dr. today...I amazingly did not gain weight.  I used wanting to sit down with her to go over kidney stone prevention at my next appointment as an excuse to eat crap all week... Not smart. 

Anyways, I am starting back tomorrow.  Full force.  No excuses.  She gave me a list of things to do while I'm on protein shakes to prevent kidney stones...so I can't be afraid.

Funny thing was, my Dr. told me that she understood if I wanted to stop the diet.... I almost laughed.  As painful as a kidney stone is.... being fat is JUST AS PAINFUL.  I'm taking my chances and getting the rest of this weight off.

Yes, I know starting tomorrow is just a form of procrastination...(why not start today?).  Well, I've already eaten a bacon/blue burger from Wendy's and my husband and I have a "date night" to celebrate paying off one of the credit cards.... I almost feel like today is shot.  So, I will start tomorrow...it's a new day.

Until next time...

My Weekend in the ER...

Well, my weekend was definitely NOT what I expected.

My husband and I went to Savannah, GA for a photoshoot this weekend. (I'm a photographer). His parents also live in the area so we were going to visit them, as well.

Thank God my husband was with me Saturday after the photoshoot. I got a severe pain on my right side...so bad I couldn't drive and had to pull off the road. I'm sure I scared the living daylights out of my husband...he had to drive at night without his glasses...Not to mention, we got lost. It took us 45 minutes to get to an Emergency Room. Worst Pain of my LIFE.

Well, after lots of good drugs...I was quite the entertainment at the ER. I don't normally cuss, but Saturday night...I had the mouth of a sailor. Anyways, come to find out...I have kidney stones. NO fun. I only passed one, but now I get the luxury of going to a Urologist for more tests...

I haven't experienced child birth yet, so I can honestly say this was the worst pain experience I've had. I'm just glad to be feeling better!

As far as the diet...I did great this weekend, so I'm not sure why I didn't drop any weight. Maybe the IV??? Who knows!? But, it will come of this week! I promise!

Weekly Weigh In

Weekly Weigh In....

198lbs.

(No weight loss, No gain)

I am okay with this number.  I did really well all week and I think it will drop a good bit this week.  My gut tells me that a lot of this is water weight from this weekend....